I never thought I’d feel relieved to get a date for an operation! However, after waiting weeks for the new date for my CRT Pacemaker op, that’s the overriding feeling that struck me. Relief that the date is booked in. Relief that my days of feeling breathless might come to an end. Relief that I will soon get through eating my dinner without feeling exhausted and out of breath! Crazy how important it is to have our hearts functioning right!
So in less than two weeks, on June 5th, I’ll be heading into Hospital for this device to be fitted. Often it is done under a local anesthetic, but the thought of being awake for hours, lying completely still, as they prod and poke leads into my heart… that’s all a bit much for me! So it will be done under a general anesthetic, so I can disappear off into dream land, instead of me anxiously freaking out on the operating table! All going well I’ll be home the next day.
The last Doctor I saw who told me I’d be getting the Pacemaker, went on to say that there’s lots of information online I can read (after we asked him about recovery time etc). He’s right. There is a lot of information online. Sometimes however you wish you could unsee what you’ve seen! Let’s just say not everyone’s scars from a Pacemaker are pretty and sometimes the lump sitting out of their chests are huge!
But on the whole, I’m extremely grateful that I can learn a lot beforehand and also hear from other people about their experiences. I’m a person who likes to be prepared and know what I’m about to walk into – so hearing peoples tips and recommendations definitely help you feel a bit better about what lies ahead.
Now, I’m sure all my medical friends are thinking… this is JUST a pacemaker operation Annika! Yeah… I know. It’s not open heart surgery and I’ll be fine! I think though, as much as it getting your head around the physical side of things (seriously, could they not make those pacemakers smaller?!), it’s also about mentally and emotionally being prepared for having this device fitted to make your heart work properly. That every 8-12 years the battery will need replacing (maybe less in my case as it will be pacing my heart 100% of the time) and then every so many years, the leads will need to be replaced (that’s a bit more of a major). So once you’re on this journey, there’s no getting off it. But I’ve decided gratefulness must override any fears or anxiousness you feel about the whole thing.
So, I may blog throughout this journey. Obviously, you don’t have to tune in if you don’t want to! But I know that as I’ve read the odd blog post from others who have walked through this, I’ve SO appreciated their insights and what helped them along the way.
Perhaps this might help someone else in the future who finds themselves walking a similar journey.
Lastly, I want to say a huge thanks for your prayers! I so appreciate each and every one given on my behalf! I’ll finish with this verse which has been popping up in front of me through different avenues recently. I love it when that happens!