Crochet Blanket No.3!

The last blanket I created took a couple of years to make! This one took me 5 weeks! I’m not sure how I managed that… perhaps it was great motivation or maybe I am just getting faster and more focused!

This creation was inspired by the colours of Manchester United for my eldest son. Let’s be honest… I don’t think teenage boys really care about what colour their blanket is! But I figured at least this goes with his favourite football team! The red in the photos don’t quite show the true colour – it’s not as orange/red as it looks above!

The blanket is for a single sized bed… again I just made it to the width and length I wanted it. The stripes I alternated between being 2 and 3 rows of black.  I added in the yellow at the end for a pop of colour (and to match Man U) and figured if it was hideous I could always unpick it!

It’s awesome to watch something grow so fast, which has been lovingly created stitch by stitch. I’m now onto another project which hopefully won’t take too long! Watch this space!



20 Years and Counting…

Tomorrow my gorgeous hubby and I celebrate 20 years of marriage, which means I’ll have been married for half my life! We’ve been blessed to “grow up” together and plan and dream what we could do in our lives.


I was 13 when I first prayed to God for an amazing guy to marry. One who would love God and love music. One who would be caring, kind and full of integrity. Within 3 months I met Peter and he far exceeded anything I could have imagined!

21641554_10212842768756834_1456215957_nI straight away wondered who this incredible guy was. He loved God with his whole being and music came in as a close second! A year later we started going out and waited out the time until we were old enough to marry. Six years felt like forever when you’re a teenager, but on September 20th 1997 our dream became reality!



We learnt a lot that first year and there were moments that were definitely “challenging.”  But through those times we grew closer together and learnt to appreciate each other more. We learnt how to put one another first and give grace when grace was needed.

We’ve been blessed beyond measure with our three kids. The years are flying by and I am forever wanting to hit the pause button, to hold onto precious moments in time. Family life is amazing, who knew life could be so fulfilling?

So, we will celebrate 20 years since we said ‘I do.’ I’m forever grateful that God brought us together and has allowed us to live lives where we can love on others. But I know that I wouldn’t be doing what I’m doing today if I didn’t have Pete in my life. He taught me as a 14 year old not to argue when he told me I was beautiful. He taught me that I could speak in front of others… that I didn’t need to live my life being shy. He taught me not to worry about every little thing… that most things I fretted over would never happen anyway. He taught me what selfless love is… how to say the words “I’m sorry”. He taught me how to honour and believe the best in people… even if they’ve hurt you in the past. He taught me how to fearlessly trust in God… even when the bank balance looked bleak. He’s taught me so many things… too many to list.  And I am so very grateful for all of it.

21698194_10212842768436826_859322460_nWe’ve had an incredible 20 years – in some ways it’s been a very normal life, living in the same house for the past 15 years and ministering in the same church for the last 19 (and we plan to continue these things for many many more years to come!). Yet, in other ways it’s been an incredible journey, full of highs and lows and laughter and tears. Through it all though, we’ve done it together and held hands as we’ve jumped into the unknown. My hair get greyer by the day… but it doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things!

As health problems rear their ugly head, we’ve held on tight and prayed… and trusted that there is One who is holding us who is greater than all of the tests and diagnosis. In the past 6 weeks, as I’ve again gone through more MRIs and Echocardiograms, I’ve again been grateful for Peters steadfastness… and ability to find funny sides on all occasions. He hugs me and reminds me not to “get on that bus yet” when my mind gets carried away with concerns and worries.


Today we’re off to Queenstown to celebrate… another thing that is only happening because Pete had faith that we could! Time out by ourselves will be amazing. Don’t get me wrong… we’ll be reminded again by how different we are… as I drag him to Puzzlingworld! But we’ll laugh and we’ll relax. We’ll drink coffee (decaf thanks! ;-)) and take time to be thankful. Because we’ve walked through challenges and come out stronger. And more in love. And my heart is full, because we’re together in this journey of life. Thank you God for each passing year…


Blue Chevron Blanket for Jaden

It’s important not to give up because great things take time!

After many months (okay, we’re heading towards 2 years I think!) I’ve finally completed my sons pure wool crocheted blanket. After finishing my first large blanket for my daughter I decided I’d like to do one for each of our kids. After showing Jaden some ideas on Pinterest, he asked if he could have a blanket that went from dark navy, through to light blue. Sure thing!



I confess I really do love this blanket! It wasn’t difficult to do as I loved the colours and how it was looking as it grew. I didn’t work on it over summer (100% wool gets quite warm to sit under!) and actually ended up doing over half of it in the last few months. The weather was getting chilly and I thought how nice it would be to complete in time for his 12th birthday last week. His reaction when he received it was worth it!

There are 5 different hues, with 31 rows of each colour. I made it to fit his King Single bed, but you could make it any size. Very warm and snuggly!

This blanket has not only been made with love for my youngest but has also connected my heart with someone who also has a love of crocheting! After years of not knowing anyone other than my Mum who would crochet, I’ve found a friend who is AMAZING and has encouraged me to venture out into make other creations! She lives a few hours away but it was great to be able to finish this while we were at her house recently! Thanks for your inspiration my friend!

Now it’s time to move onto Blanket No.3!


Friendship is Balm to the Soul

I was meeting with a group of women the other week and realised I’d only known some of them for a year – others even less. Yet, I love their friendship, their beautiful smiles, their loving hearts. We talk about motherhood, God and all sorts of other funny and crazy things! We laugh a lot, sometimes cry a little and definitely share our lives together.

Week by week, I meet new people and I’m amazed at who God might bring across my path (and me across theirs)! To think a year ago, I didn’t know some of these incredible people and how much more enriched my life is now for knowing them. I have never found it easy meeting new people (which is slightly problematic when you’re married to the Pastor). As I child I was very shy and the thought of talking to “strangers” would make me want to run a mile! But I’m learning to get better at it. I decided many years ago that the label “shy” was hindering my life and it was time to put on a smile and be welcoming to those I came across! In my heart I always wanted people to know they were welcome, it was just learning how to translate that into “Hi, it’s lovely to meet you!”

So I’ve been struck with the beauty of new friendships. Of how God can bring across just the right person at the right time, who “gets” you. But I also treasure the friendships I’ve had for many years. Some I’ve had since childhood – who have walked the journey of life with me. There is something special shared with those who know your back story and have hung in there through thick and thin. Some friends I may only see every year or two… but they hold a special place in my heart.

Sometimes friends move on… either to another city or country… or from this present world. It’s easy to focus on the loss in these times and even begin to question how that void in our lives will be filled. Sometimes that gaping hole left behind feels so deep. An acceptance has to come, that people do come and go – and that’s okay. When pastoring a church, this can be particularly hard… as people leave and move on (sometimes suddenly), after you’ve loved and poured out for them. But this is life. Through it all, we must keep our hearts soft and still choose to open up our lives to new people that might appear. You just never know who is around the corner – who might share that crazy love of “whatever” with you. I often reflect on how much fuller and blessed my life is because of someone. And yet, months earlier, I didn’t even know I was missing them from my life!

Let’s remain so thankful for those friends we have in our lives. They come in many
different forms. The ones we can laugh with… the ones we skype with… the ones who will tell us we’re stronger than we think. The ones who come by the hospital with coffee, the ones who listen late at night. The ones we can text out for prayer… the ones who will laugh till they cry. The ones who turn up with chocolate… to the ones who nod their heads with a knowing – cause they’ve walked that path too and know how to lead you through it.

We were never made to do life alone. There is always someone close by. Sometimes we just need to reach out and find them. “Friendship is born in that moment when one person says to another “What! You too? I thought I was the only one.” – C.S. Lewis


Time to Take Heart


“Your heart isn’t normal. You seem to have a couple of problems…”

It was like living in a surreal dream. You get told some news and you can see yourself sitting there smiling, nodding your head, saying “aha…” but inside, you’re screaming “Are you serious?!” It was by accident that we first found out something wasn’t quite right with my heart. I was having an ECG as a precaution, before some Migraine meds I was on were increased. Not for a moment did I, nor my Doctor think that anything would show up.

Yet there it was. A left bundle branch block (LBBB), meaning there was a delay or obstruction along the pathway that my electrical impulses travel, to make my heart beat. My Doctor was shocked – I was in disbelief – neither of us expecting anything on the ECG. Lots of words were thrown around which I didn’t understand. I scribbled LBBB down, as that much I could remember and called Pete saying “You’re not going to believe this!” It was then a time of waiting until I was called up for an Echo (like an ultrasound) to be done on my heart.

It was a couple of weeks ago when I was called up for it and I was still recovering from an operation (for a completely unrelated issue). I was tender and sore but extremely grateful that I was being fitted in for an Echo. I went along, expecting to have it and be told the results a month later. However, the Cardiologist decided he wanted to talk to Peter and I straight away and it was then that my surreal dream, began to kick in.

left-bundle-branchAs he calmly said my heart wasn’t normal I began to wonder what he meant by a “couple of problems.” He explained (with pictures.. which did help!) what Left Bundle Branch Block meant and how my left ventricle was contracting later than the right. He then went onto explain my other problem. It seemed that my heart was also not contracting as it should. “Not beating as vigorously.” More words were used and I was trying to take in what he was saying.

Now, I have to admit, I wasn’t one for Science when I was at school… it was one subject that would make my eyes glaze over and I remember counting down the minutes till the end of class. I was beginning to regret that now. However, at this moment I was extremely grateful that my hubby had taken Biology till the end of College and loved it! There was hope that one of us was understanding what was being said. I whispered to him, “I hope you’re listening to all this… you’re going to need to explain it to me later!”


After another ECG and being told that if I ever have another fainting spell, I should call an ambulance immediately, I walked back to the car in disbelief. My Cardiologist was going to meet with the others in a few days to discuss my case. His feeling though… was that I would need a pacemaker.

I was stunned. A pacemaker? Was this for real? Don’t old people get pacemakers? A week later it was confirmed, they were in unanimous agreement that I needed one. My Cardiologist went on to explain to me that they wanted an MRI done first though and he would try and get me in for Monday this week. I heard nothing more and went into the weekend trying to forget about it all. I had my party on Saturday to celebrate my 40th birthday that is coming up, all the while thinking “Wow, I never thought I’d be so grateful to reach 40!

What better way to celebrate than Hot Fudge Cake with a Friend! 

After praying for me on Sunday at church, I had a call Monday morning to say the MRI was happening that day. There were questions as to why my heart had these problems and they wanted to make sure it had formed okay and wasn’t genetic. After the MRI, we saw my Cardiologist again –  Praise God it all looked good! Our prayers were answered. The repercussions if there were genetic issues, weren’t worth thinking about. It was the best news I’d had all year! As we drove home I kept saying to Peter “I’m so relieved. I’m so relieved…”


So now I wait. At some point in the next 6 weeks I’ll meet with a Cardiologist to talk about my “Biventricular” pacemaker. Does this all seem crazy? Yes. Am I slightly concerned at how this will go? Yes. Can I believe the words “I have to get a pacemaker” come out of my mouth? No.

But I think despite the strange journey I’m on, my underlying sense is one of gratitude. Incredibly my Doctor decided to do an ECG one day, which revealed something wasn’t right. The upshot is I’m doing okay now, but give it some years and I wouldn’t be. I can’t help but see the hand of God on this whole process, from the way it was found out, to the “coincidences” we’ve had along they way. I have an amazing friend who works in Cardiology and she has been the hugest blessing to talk to. I can ask all of my dumb questions and she patiently explains what I need to know. My heart is so grateful.

So, as we head towards Christmas and I’m looking towards the unknown in the next couple of months, I just keep reminding myself of my very big God. He has blessed incredible people with knowledge, skill and ability, to create these devices and fit them. I may set off alarms at airports and have a scar on my chest… but at least I know my ticker will be working as it should. I keep thinking, if how I feel now, isn’t how other people feel… then I wonder what my new normal might be like? Who knows? I may be out running marathons before we know it!

Well… at the very least, I might go for a walk around the block without getting puffed…




Life’s Twists and Turns



It’s been an interesting couple of months. Sometimes you’re heading towards the end of a year, feeling like you know what is ahead, only to find a curve in the road which takes you in another direction! I’m sure for those effected by the big earthquake down country last week, they would understand this on a whole other level.

This morning I was reading Psalm 39, where it talks about our days being a “mere handbreadth; the span of my years is as nothing before you.” My incredibly talented husband wrote an amazing song about this – how one day we’re here, another we’re gone. So often we’re building things in our lives – which ultimately don’t hold value in the long run. When tragedy strikes, suddenly what really matters comes to the forefront for us. I’ve watched people on the news standing beside their demolished houses, still smiling. “We’re still alive” is the resounding cry from them. When you have a brush with death, being alive suddenly counts for a whole lot more than “things”.

I’ve in no way come close to dying this year, but after a brief stint in hospital, followed by (what felt like a very long…) week in hospital and an operation, it has brought me back to the basics of life. Of appreciating every little thing. To be able to walk. To talk. To be home. To hug those I love. To have family around. Amazing friends. Good food. Flowers. Medical people who know so much more than I could ever imagine! And the appreciation of my church family whom I miss.

Now as I begin to dip my toe back into the realities of life again, I’m trying keep things in perspective. The days come and go. Life has it’s ups and downs. But there are things in our lives which are vitally important and that we must treasure. Appreciate. Hold on to. And not take for granted.

Life does toss us curve balls and we may be tempted to crawl under a blanket and hide. But life keeps going and there is a reason why we’re here on this earth. For now. This time. This moment. I could spend my life stressing and worrying about things (which I’ve learnt over the years achieves nothing!), or I can take a few deep breaths and hold onto the moments that matter. And savor life.

In a matter of weeks, my youngest with leave Primary School. It’s a day I’ve been dreading for many years now. Not because I don’t want him to grow up – but because it’s another end of an era. I’ve made the most of every “last” this year. The last swimming carnival. The last time he spoke in assembly. The last time baking for the PTA. The list goes on. But I know too that although this road is ending for our family after 11 years, life goes on. It will look a bit different. But it will be just as good in every way. I’ve appreciated and treasured the moments we’ve had there, but its time to keep moving into the next season.

The twists and turns of life will continue. It wakes us up and reminds us to take stock of our priorities. It’s okay to feel sad as we let go of one season but we must fill our hearts with expectation as we enter the next! For (in the words of my hubby) God is good and the best is always yet to come!



Perspective is Everything

Ever had one of those weeks where you feel yourself sliding down and the pit comes a calling? You know the pit… that place where it all feels so hard and you loose sight that good things are a coming! One thing after another builds up and before you know it, your thoughts are not your friend. You wonder if you’re cut out for the things you’re doing, questions like “God why did you make me like this?” come to your mind. You’re tired, in pain and you long for life to return to normal – although you’re not even sure what that is anymore.

For us, we’re in a busy season right now. We knew going into this term that it was going to be crazy busy, with many projects and events on the calender for church. We’re nearly there – we’ve come so far and our Conference for the year is only a week away! It will be incredible I know! The auditorium connect space is in the middle of a huge transformation and the 6am starts for my hubby will all be worth it! The past few weeks I’ve been reminding myself that this frantic, stressful time we’re in right now will pass and that life will look different a month from now.

Sure there are always things coming up and the life of pastoring is a continual balancing act, to ensure that we be who we’re meant to be, do what we are meant to do and still love each other at the end of the day! But the last couple of weeks, I’ve had to remind myself that we’re living in a full on stage and that “this too shall pass.”

For seven years, I’ve also battled migraines. Since July last year, they decided to come banging on my door (or head!) weekly. After years of trying different things and a LOT of prayer, this years we’ve been trialing different drugs and to try and find something to prevent them. After some that almost sent me crazy (actually I’m not kidding!) I thought we’d finally hit the jackpot! A few months ago, I began a new medication which seemed to be helping me. I went from 4 days a week of migraines, down to maybe one light one a week, with a badish one once a month. Two weeks ago all that changed. It was Tuesday afternoon and I began yawning. The tiredness hit. The pain started. The nausea arrived. My face went as white as a sheet. That familiar taste of tea suddenly tasted like poison and it wasn’t long before I was in bed, holding my head crying with pain. Worse than ever. The next day was as bad. Days went by and the meds weren’t helping and the pit came a calling.

It’s when the pain is so bad that you loose all perspective of what the truth is. I had to remind myself “You will get better.” “Give it a couple of days.” “The pain will leave – eventually.” Because when you’re feeling that bad – all perspective becomes hazy and you begin to believe that this is it – for the rest of your life. You’ll never be well enough to see your friends again. To work. To preach. To connect with friends. Help that person. To be a good mother to your kids… wife to your husband… the list goes on.

Right perspective is still something we need every week. Even now. We’re tired and it’s been weeks of my hubby working each day. Small things begin to feel like big things. Ministry feels challenging. So it’s now that I remind myself that this too shall pass.  A holiday is coming in a couple of weeks. We will be okay. We will make it through.

And I also remember to be grateful. For the small things and the amazing  blessings that come our way. For homemade soup with fresh bread. For good friends who listen and laugh with you. Faithful people who pray when you send them SOS messages. For peace and quiet. Family. Sunshine. Words with Friends, giving joy to a weary soul. For kids who love Jesus, are serving Him of their own accord and living in ways that make you proud. For friends that see the tears and whip you and your kids away for treats out. For fellow pastors wives from afar who understand the highs and lows and encourage you to keep going. A hubby who you can laugh with and loves you despite everything.

There is so much to be grateful for.

I am blessed. I just need to keep that perspective in place. The days maybe long and sometimes I may struggle with pain but yet I will lift my eyes in the midst of it all and say ‘Thank you’ to the One who Sees, Knows and Cares about me.